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[foxrafer.livejournal.com]

Hello, everyone. Once again I find myself having to apologize to all of you. I've made promises I couldn't keep and made commitments I haven't been able to live up to. I am truly sorry for this year's awards not getting off the ground, all of which is entirely my fault.

Any other year I'd probably say that we could begin again; create a new timeline and still get the awards done for 2012. However, my life right now doesn't afford me any mental capacity to handle much of anything beyond the basics of breathing, eating and sleeping. It's not even that the work itself is unreasonable; it's that I don't have the energy, confidence or passion to see it through.

Back in April, before things got too bad, someone kindly volunteered to help me pull everything together. I seriously considered the offer because I could feel things were sliding, but even then to just think about e-mailing all the files and forwarding all the nominations was too much. I know that sounds ridiculous (it is pretty ridiculous) but it was, and is, still true. Therefore, I'm afraid I'm going to have to say that the awards will not happen this year, and unless something seriously changes over the next few months, they will not happen again.

First, I would like to thank everyone who sent in nominations or promoted the awards this year. And to anyone who ever participated in any form over the past few years - whether through nominating, reading, commenting, voting, you name it - all of my sincerest gratitude. This has truly been such a wonderful fandom project to take on, and it is something I've absolutely enjoyed. It's been an honor to meet all of you, and you've solidified my belief that this fandom is filled with the kindest, most inviting and fun people I've ever had the privilege to know. I'm sorry this is going out on such a whimper, but I hope the past few months haven't irreparably altered how you'll remember the MOMEs. It will always be something in which I hold fond memories.

What I am going to do over the next few weeks is put together a list of all the stories and authors who were nominated this year and post it here as a way to celebrate them and their work, to give them some of the recognition they deserve. The kind person who volunteered to lend a hand earlier this year has agreed to help get that together, so keep an eye out for it around the end of the month.

Once again, I'm sorry for not getting this off the ground this year and for bringing it to a close. It's been great fun and I hope you've enjoyed yourself as well. Thank you for all of the kindness and generosity you've shown me over the years. I truly appreciate it and all of you.

Comments

[aliensouldream.livejournal.com]

Hi dear. I want to say a huge Thank You for all your incredible work through the years of running this award. It has been great fun and brought a lot of new fics and fandoms to everyone's attention, which is a great thing. It's also been a lovely way to show the love people have for their fandoms and to really celebrate this little corner of our virtual world and to acknowledge the writers and all they've given us in fun and happiness. It's an amazing achievement and well done!!!

I am sad to hear that things have been overwhelming and unmanagable on top of work for you, but I'm not surprised because it must have been a mountain of work. The thing that would make this workable is if the whole thing could be automated, that is both nominations and voting. If you think of polls, for example, that is an automated voting system. It would have to be looked into, but I would say, please don't despair because there may be a way these awards could survive if the right system is found to remove the ardous parts of creating and collating all the data and votes. Maybe we should throw this over to the knowledgable tech-heads in the fandom to suggest a few things?

Whatever happens, we love you for running these!!! I hope your work gets easier and leaves you time to just relax and enjoy the fandoms you have championed so well xxx

[nverland]

Real life does have a way of taking away the things we would rather do and would enjoy more. I hope that whatever the issues are they lessen and life starts treating you easier and better. Thank you for all you've done in the past, it has been greatly appreciated.

[eve_n_furter]

My my, you're human too? I thought that was just me. :3 No, really, you are the one who should be thanked for your wonderful generosity and kindness, and all the effort you have put into this over years. It has certainly given me many smiles and good reads. Rest and heal with good consciousness! *sends lots of love and hugs your way*

[ink-gypsy.livejournal.com]

You've done a tremendous job pulling these awards together in the past, so you have nothing to apologize for because you couldn't manage it this year.

I look forward to seeing the nominations whenever you get a chance to post them.

Thank you for all your hard work, and I'll keep my fingers crossed for next year's awards. *hugs*

[romeny.livejournal.com]

I'm sure this is an enormous task to undertake each yr and we've been lucky you've been able to do this up until now. I think it's wonderful you are able to compile the lists at all which is greatly appreciated.

[itstonedme.livejournal.com]

Every year that you have presented these awards, I have marvelled at the amount of energy and time it must have taken you (and your banner helper, absolutely) to pull it all together. It was mind-boggling, truly, and not only that, but you had another comm site going and your fics and your life! It has been truly a stupendous run but nothing is infinite, not even the big bang (and I refer to the universe, not Viggo/Bean).

The MOMEs were glorious and so thank you for your dedication and gift. They will always be remembered fondly. I hope that you feel only a little sadness (as we all do) but no regret or guilt. You have my utmost support with everything that is happening in your life. *hearts*

[alex-quine.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It's grand just to hear your voice. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been having such a tough time and am touched and humbled that amidst the yeuch you should think of lists - although I can think of a time when RL was fairly grim and doing a small job, on something I cared about, gave me a lift and a lot of satisfaction. I hope that you will take the time for yourself and in the end decide to do what pleases you, knowing that the MOMEs have generated fun and occasional wonder and laughter and curiosity. thankyou.

[addie71.livejournal.com]

I don't know how you've even managed to do this by yourself year after year and I want to say thanks for all that you do.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

All I want to say at the moment is that I am so very happy to see you post, to actually hear from you.. RL can be pretty tough and I sincerely hiope thinhs will light up and life will be kinder for you.

Thank you for all the things you've done for us, the MOME Awards, wordsontongue, etc. It's all so very much appreciated. I am thinking about you.

[offski.livejournal.com]

I hope things get easier for you soon. Sending virtual hugs and good karma.

[caras-galadhon.livejournal.com]

It's a joy to hear from you, madame. You have always done so much for us all, and every bit is appreciated. ♥ You're in my thoughts, and I really do hope that things start to look up for you, and that you're able to take good care of yourself in the meantime. *lots and lots of hugs*

[mooms.livejournal.com]

It's good to hear from you and I am sorry that you are having a difficult time. I can only offer virtual hugs and my thanks for all the hard work and dedication you have put in over the years on the MOME Awards. Your work on our behalf and your unfailing kindess and generosity to us have been much appreciated.

I hope and wish for an easier time for you in the future. Love & hugs. xxx

[rifleman-s.livejournal.com]

"...and you've solidified my belief that this fandom is filled with the kindest, most inviting and fun people I've ever had the privilege to know."

And that includes you!

Thank you so very much for all the hard work you've put in to the MOME Awards in past years; I appreciate it very much.

*hugs*

[prisca1960.livejournal.com]

I just can repeat what most of the others says: don't feel bad that you're not able to do MOME any longer. What you did over the years was great and even if I'm not that much into the LofR Fandom but more into Faculty, the last two years were so much fun with nominating and reading and all for me. All I can do now is to say 'Thank you' for that. I hope things will be easier for you soon.

[haldoor.livejournal.com]

Thank you for doing this so long and so well. You really deserve an award for sticking with it. Good luck to you in whatever endeavours you are now involved in that are keeping you away, and also for any future ones you take on! THANK YOU! ♥

[doylebaby.livejournal.com]

Thanks for all your hard work and for keeping it going for such a long time. *hugs* Hope things will improve for you soon.

[honeyandvinegar.livejournal.com]

Awards can be a lot of fun, but only if the people putting them on are happy to do it. These things take time and effort, and with the times, jobs, family, and other commitments/troubles, it can just be too damned much. Don't worry or trouble yourself over this. Fandom's true celebrations come through the stories, friends and personal accomplishments--awards like you've put on are perks, a gift that should be seen as unexpected and a surprise, not a given.

*Thank you* for all the time and effort you've given fandom for years and years. I hope that you find what you need and do Great Things in all facets of life. :):):)

[afra-schatz.livejournal.com]

God, darling, there is nothing you of all people need to apologise for. It's just good to hear that you're okay and that's all that matters.

[blueskydancers.livejournal.com]

Thank you for all you've done in the past - it must have been a huge amount of work which is truly appreciated!

*hugs*

[shegollum.livejournal.com]

You created and maintained something that gave tons of happiness to a whole lot of people and I thank you so much for that. It's a lasting thing and I know that I'll go back and read the collections from years past many times. I hope that in your real life, things become better soon. We've missed you and I'm so glad you reappeared even for just a bit. *hugs*

[weepingnaiad.livejournal.com]

I fail at being around LJ nearly enough and never saw this, but I want to echo everyone's comments. It is us that are grateful to you for all you've done with these awards. Such a huge undertaking to take on by yourself!

Thank you for everything and I truly do hope that R/L settles down. It's such a shame with it pulls us from the things that provide us joy (but I relate, all too well).